This is a big effing deal. A month ago, it took me about thirty minutes to find the will to wake up, get out of bed and function. The rest of the time I sat and stared, wept inexplicably, or purchased things online that I had no need for.
So I am still buying things online that I have no need for, but the terrible sensations are gone. My head has stopped buzzing and I am able to go outside and not feel like the sidewalk is going to devour me.
Am I cured of this horrible postpartum depression? I posed the question to the women in my weekly postpartum support group. I like these women, and feel genuinely sad for many of them. Most are first-time mothers who had no idea what was wrong following their baby's birth. They waited too long to get help. One of them can't even recall the first four months of her daughter's life, she was so depressed. Ouch.
The women thought about my question and looked at each other. They were puzzled, as I was. I am on medication, and will be for a couple of months, so I am probably not 100 percent in the clear. But I don't feel like crap any more.Maybe I am just in Postpartum Limbo, the little resting spot before you catch the train to Wellville.
What a horrible metaphor. Yikes! I am definitely not cured.
Maybe your medication is actually working.
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